• Meredith Rawlings

Celebrating an interesting anniversary today..

It’s my 2 year anniversary...

Two years ago today I started my first job right out of college. I knew I wasn’t going to stay there for my whole career and I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to enjoy it.

Turns out I was right. I spent most of each day either bored or irritated or feeling stuck..except when I was chatting with my coworkers, of course.

I was itching to leave, to start the business I run now.

On conference calls I doodled logos, created workouts, wrote out intuitive eating techniques and Googled “how to start a fitness business” so many times I was sure the IT people would call me at any moment and accuse me of abusing company property.

I spent months working at the paper mill full-time and killing myself getting Body and Soul Bootcamp off the ground. I started an Instagram page, created a website, I got promoted, went on work trips almost every month and I wondered how long until I could afford to quit.

Every day the afternoons dragged. I daydreamed constantly about the women I could be helping at that very moment, I got more and more impatient.

Finally I couldn’t take it anymore. I pulled into the parking lot one morning and heard the same voice I had heard years ago when I finally stopped restricting my food and hating my body.

“I can’t do this anymore.”

So I walked inside, called my boss and that was it.

Swipe to see the pics I took the day I left: total elation then IMMEDIATE terror

I tell you this story for two reasons, the first is that if you identify with this story. If there is something pulling away from whatever career, relationship or situation in your life you need to acknowledge it.

Too many people go through life unaware of the dreams in their hearts, or too scared to act on them. I’m not telling you to quit your job, I’m just saying be aware of what you want from your life and think about who you need to be in order to get it.

The second reason is that if you’re feeling stuck and out of control in your life, focus on the good things you have. Every season of life happens for a reason. If you can't see the reason right now, be patient.

I know that the reason I had that job was to make it clear that I was meant for something else. I also made so many wonderful friends that luckily didn’t dump me even after I skedaddled!

Two years ago I started the journey to where I am now.

I am so thankful that I didn’t get my “dream” job, what I got was the opportunity to create it for myself.